fool's gold shining;

 

1. there's good lighting in my parents' room.. but bad when the sun rises and the sun floods your vision like BAM! when you open your waxed eyes

2. i have decided to make peace with everything & everyone and i am nice and indifferent all over... but i can't help but feel a tinge of.. hmm, feel as if I am STILL being talked down to, feels so condescending

3. then i go straight to my "OHHHMMMMMM" mode and am yet once again reminded that i am starting everything blank and that i should ignore the pettiest of things. if you don't like what i say then too fucking bad, *does a diva headshake and snaps fingers*

4. ok remind self: let it go. let it go. let it go.

5. :D at peace. my songs rock at making me being at peace

6.  another reminder: to speak whatever is on my mind

7. EH IT'S A NEW YEAR AND I HAVE THE NEW YEAR FEVER... literally. yeehaw!

8. i couldn't fall asleep last night cos something was flashing in my head.. "WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONE" aka which part of my mad mind decided to leave everything i love behind and fly over to melbourne. hahahaahahah i must be mad. i think i am mad. okay but it's normal to be paranoid.

9. yes if nobody knows, or if everyone knows already, i am heading over to melbourne to study this feb

10. sometimes i think this decision isn't that bad, sometimes i think it will be cool but most of all, i think it's pretty scary and _______________________

11. and then i walk around the room looking at my parents faces at ease while they're in dreamland, and poke my little dog and wonder how i can live without them?

12. that said, i haven't felt so close to my family in such a long time :) everything's swell so i hope nobody spoils it hahahaah

13. i'm sick so i gotta sleep, what am i doing up at 310 anyway?

x L