I thought out aloud about issues and questions and maybes and ifs about everything and I see it in.. a new light..? Possibilities that I didn't want to give myself any chance to think about seemed.. real for awhile.
And I struggled: do I read between the lines or do I take as I am given?
It's funny when you think about the light that people can think of you in. How you react and the words that you say in that moment may be so childlike and... distasteful.. Sometimes I'm sorry. Sometimes for the way I may project myself in situations, sometimes for being so rash, sometimes.. for just taking chances and a shot at being completely raw and honest.. and simply, sometimes for looking so stupid. But a lot times, I tell myself, if anyone were to know me better.. I'm always changing. Always. You see the worst in me you see the best in me, you can never pick one.
A lot of times you wish you could take back words said, or go back to a moment and try to make it alright.. but i'm not one to think about regret/what ifs so I live with it, and maybe wave a white flag or tell you to have a nice life. And a lot of times... I don't know what I want.
So.. are you honest with yourself and.. me? :)
x L
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