WE'RE GOING THROUGH CHANGES

"I feel unhappy
 I am so sad
 I lost the best friend
 That I ever had

 We shared the years
 We shared each day
 I love you
 But I found my way

 Now all my days
 Are filled with tears
 Wish I could go back
 And change these years"

 

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Sometimes I wished I didn't care what people genuinely think and feel... Sometimes I wish I didn't care to want to leave days aside for people, to think "oh maybe we might do something...?" Then I realized it's really silly, really silly.

Lesson for today: Think for myself and not be an option to anyone...?

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So I am a confused person as of now. What should I feel, how can I do anything better, how do I not feel so pressured into wanting to fall back into anyone's good books, how can I say things a little nicer without the urge of wanting to scream out my exact feelings... how can I live up to your saintly expectations without constantly apologizing for what I feel and think? How do I play the bad guy part without thinking for anyone else? How do I go back to being the me with you? How do I go back to dreaming out loud with you?

That said,

I will learn to be The Bigger Man.