i bet you think this song is about you, don't you.. don't you?

I wish I wasn't so drawn to such sad songs.. but it does strike a note with you doesn't it?

x

As I age, I realize I'm a lot more private than I used to be. I used to be like an open book for everyone to read. I wore my heart on my sleeve, I was honest and real yet brutal.. I couldn't stand to keep everything in, I just needed to yell out to the world.

But now I'd prefer to take it down a notch.. down it with a scotch.. okay, kidding. By the way, I'd want to try a Cosmopolitan because it's a Carrie Bradshaw thing. 

Anyway, my point is - I finally understood why people don't "discuss" bout the fine, deep things of life.. Because it really is unnecessary hassle. What's the point right? So I have more or less understood why people avoid certain issues or just tell people, "It's nothing..." because there's just too much to digest, too much to face up to, too hard to listen to the words because listening to it just makes it so much more real.

I came across this quote which said something like, "Silence is more damaging than words".. or somefink along that line. And in a way, it's true. It mindfucks you, don't you think so? 

Try to break down my walls again?

x L