don't know why you do the things you do do do;

IT'S JANUARY 18 AND I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY BUT.

IT'S LESS THAN A MONTH TILL I'M OUTTA HERE. 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO THAT BUT.....................

AND I NEED TO READ MORE. READ MORE. READ. MORE.

AND I LOVE MY FAMILY.

AND I THINK I AM GOING TO MISS THEM.

SO MUCH SO MY HEART MIGHT JUST DIE A FEW DEATHS.

THIS ISN'T VERY POETIC SO ERM TALK TO YOU LATER.

I AM ALIVE.

and i'd like to give an excuse that my keyboard suddenly worked up but hey i want to scream when i want to hahahahahahaha goodnight listen to some weepies it'll cheer you up

x L

what an animal;

(if you wanna kill your eyes and ears, get all angry, laugh like mad, and have your murder instinct acting up... WATCH THIS HAHAHAHAHAHAHA)




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1. Me: Yay I'm going out tomorrow onwards to go meet some men. it's time to start flirting HAHAHA

   Angel: Yah the first man you're gonna meet tomorrow is your driving instructor.

   Me: .... LOL

2. 2011: The Year of Transformation

A New Year

“Although dates are considered to be illusory, what I feel is that in this moment, the perspectives that await us will be very intense. I say intense in a way of neutrality rather than saying positively or negatively intense. How you define intense purely depends upon your vibratory state of being. 2011 is a year that I have called the year of transformation. It’s not really a time period to base this definition upon, but just more of the point of timing to which we are viewing perspective in the now moment where we are seeing a conscious awareness of transformation happening on all levels: Through us, through others, through the collective growth of humanity.

-oceanofmind

3. 2011 may be just a date... or maybe it's just the New Year Syndrome where we're led to believe it might just be better when it's actually just another day and we're still holding onto all the shit. Which is true. But what can I say? The power of the mind can lead us to believe and have faith in so many things. So I've mentally and spiritually(?) started afresh, threw out the negativity that sometimes nags me at the back of my head (still), and... I'm ready. For.. battle. 

4. If I were to have it my way, I would've said a lot of things to people.

5. Like to you, I'd tell you how I feel about your choice. But it is ultimately your choice so I have no place and I can have no judgement. If it's what you believe in then go ahead. Personally think you're so much better than that but love what you love and do what you do, we all make mistakes and we are only young once. At least that's what I tell myself. So go on and do what you wish, destroy, wreck, love, lose it all.. afterall, what better way to learn and experience it? I can but only respect it. Amen. Wish you the best.

6. And to you, I honestly wish things were better but you keep talking down to me.. Can't believe I waved the white flag but hey, I want things to be new again and I respect that we all change, more so you especially, so.. I'm only nice if you're gonna play nice. Thank god I'm over all that, and if you're honest and sincere about it, you should really watch what you say and stop acting like you're all that. True, flaws only surface when one is clear-headed enough so I'm not that girl who's gonna tolerate and be patient.. all that you've preached about. So please, no NATA and walk the talk. If you wanna be genuine to me about this, then stop the lousy attitude. ..Oh, is that you? All that "ohokayidontreallycaredontreallyknow".. Okay, then I don't want that. That said, if you're better off somewhere else, then please go somewhere else. I don't need to listen to your condescending words because I'm better than all that. I'm stepping up my game.

7. I feel so cheesy.... I really should get back to playing my guitar! Meh, I miss my piano..

8. My bestfriend lately.. has been.. DENG DENG. MY DOG HAHAHAAHAHAH. It sounds like a 40 year old woman with 15 cats talking but hey, I'm starting to have a hell lot of chemistry with my doggy okay! And she listens. So cuteeeeeeee *melts*

9. I know, I know my posts are all over the place but something will work out along the way.... can you tell I'm slowly losing my interest here? 

10. I'm still sick. Still sick. So all I do is bum around because my energy level for the past few days have been about 30% and my horrible throat and stuffed nose isn't helping at all. And my parents have been really awesome and caring (they both bought truckloads of muffins for me without asking each other beforehand SO CUTE)... BOOOO I'LL MISS THEM CAN I BRING THEM TO AUSSIE WITH ME. Okay, NO. I will spam my mother's wsapp like crazy hahaahah. I'll miss watching tv and laughing at retards on tv with my dad :( And pestering my sister and annoying my brother and YOYOYO-ing with my (future)sis-in-law.. Okay guys, it isn't time to start emo-ing. Hell, I feel too happy to emo now. This song by AJ rocks. It's a sad story but it's such a happy melody HAHAHAH ok i'm going a bit crazy here

11. You better miss my insanity and sweetness and everything in between. Cos THERE'S NO ONE LIKE MEEEEEEEE hahahahahha oh god I better head to bed love y'all... ok not really, not all of y'all but y'all who loves me back hahaha wtf

x L

i'm a walking disaster;

"Why did you pick on me? Why did you let the pretty bird shit on me?"

As catchy as the song is.... it's quite funny isn't it!! hahahahaahahah okay I just need to get monday over and done with and then i'll do shopping. Can't wait to do winter clothes shopping hee hee. 

x L

typing in the dark;

Okay I'm just here to say... I FEEL SO EFFING FULL. And I'm gonna start doing really girly "therapeutic" things............... YES! Can't wait for morning to come. Goodbye 20 year old Hu Xu HA HA HA H *strokes Hu Xu* It gave me the much needed wisdom for the past 20 years of my life but... Hu Xu, you're too hairy!! hahahhha oh god, I'm mad. So anyway, my tummy's being really fickle minded about what it wants to be? To feel full or not to feel full? So I'm feeling empty and then really full so..... what kind of feeling is that? 

Anyway, shall spend time at work thinking of various ways to pamper self aka things to get. Oh, did I mention? I'm shifting to a new place this sunday. Yaaaaarrrgggghhhhhhh. I know how tiresome/annoying moving is but.... something new is always something fun. Right? Right. Or is this new. Hmm.

And it's really bad to type in the dark. Really bad for your eyes. Speaking of eyes, the lumpy in my eye is still not disappearing. Think I need to wingardium-leviosa it to somewhere else.... hahahhah whatthecrap am I talking about?!?! Okay, gotta wake up and say goodbye to Hu Xu!!!! Oh, and hairy eyebrows. Cos I've been growing them out to trim it to a thick model kinda eyebrows(no, not the overly exaggerated and thicken by eyebrow pencil). Too thin is.. eek! And too thick is.. unkempt? Okay it really depends. But erm, it's hard to describe the kind of eyebrows I want but I don't want thin eyebrows. Nooooot nice. Hahahaha why the hell am I telling people about this.. AND I want my hair to be red :( And I'm having a stupid impulse to do something about my hair but I don't want to kill it. Which reminds me, I should get some lame tong or a nice hairblower(?), along with my cool steaming iron machine(I like it!! I like it so much I can't stop steaming! HAHAHAHA)... Gotta work out a list. AND MAKEUP BWAHAHAHAHA.

I've been really meaning to edit photos and post them up etc. but time and memory space isn't my friend so... Boring words for now booooooooooooooooo.

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K, too much unnecessary stuff,
x L

blahblahblahblah;

Think of me when you're out. when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
And when the world treats you way too fairly
Oh it's a shame I'm a dream


All I wanted was you


I COULD FOLLOW YOU TO THE BEGINNING
JUST TO RELIVE THE START
AND MAYBE THEN WE'LL REMEMBER TO SLOW DOWN
AT ALL OF OUR FAVOURITE PARTS


ALL I WANTED WAS YOU(UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU) YEAH

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I UNDERSTOOD THE LYRICS OF THE PARAMORE SONG I POSTED. hahahahahah  w o l s. Was walking back home in the night just now and.. man, it makes sense when you relate to it, you know? Okay, that's all I wanted to share. I love lyrics. One day, I will write awesome lyrics. But first I need to be awesome at melodies... I've always sucked at writing a song theoretically. I remember my old theory classes where we had to write melodies on paper with absolutely no help from the piano and oh god, I suck so badly that I feel like crying and laughing everytime someone has to play it. LOL it's just a jumble of notes hahahaaha. That said, I wish I could take my Grade 8 Theory test. But that means a whole lot more of trying to understand all those stuff again....... Sometimes I wonder if I should've attempted seriously studying music but okay forget it.

I am in a rambling mode today. OH GUESS WHAT. I am working right? So CCTVs have been installed and today was like my second day of work with someone whom I just met, and it was pretty alright! :) People have been pretty awesome so far.. All nice and dandy and I hope no ah lianzszxsz pollute the environment. Sigh. Anyway, I felt as if I was in some kind of "The Office" kind of mockumentary cos it felt as if the CCTVs were filming my every move.. ha ha ha ha ha. So imagine all the, "That's what she said" lines and the straight faces accompanied by the stare straight into the camera, or the funny faces behind someone else's back.. or threatening to whack the CCTV with my mop thingamajigy. heh heh

Okay I know nobody reads those but...... I'm looking forward to being brainlessly occupied. I gotta get my own life too right? Yeah.. right. That's what people do when they try to move on. Have fun then.

x L