My forehead has never seen the light of the day unless 1. I'm swimming 2. The wind is being a bitch.... and in this case, it is none of the above.. which is hallelujah worthy. I was just bored in the middle of the night and found it amusing. I have always thought of my forehead to be a little high...? But apparently it isn't and it is said that high forehead people were smart ._. NAH. Does not work that way HAHAHA. Am not in denial am not in denial.
That said. Why are my eyebrows so thin. I'm gonna grow it out. Bushy's in yo hahahaah okay I tried to grow it out a couple of times but it irked me I don't know why!! It's like weeds you know. Except you can't smoke it hahaha okay whatever I'm a little mad here.
(OMG LOL. Neopets just emailed me to inform my that my account was gonna be close down due to deactivation... what the hell. I haven't played Neopets in at least 8 years and it takes 8 years to shut the account down?!?!)
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What's in my head? The inconsistency in people and how they're reacting to me seems a whole lot different. Is this the case of "everything's the same but in a different light"? I want to feel the same towards people, feel the security, feel the love.. but then someone I truly cared about reminded me about the fact of life and it did hurt because it felt as if I was watching something die in front of me? As if death wasn't pain enough... witnessing death.. ?
Dear friend, I don't know if I dare to embrace this security that you've given me any longer because it's all messed up in the grey areas and I'm always having to take a step back because our lives is ours and you can't always be there for me, can't always be there to spare a thought for me, can't follow me to my darkest thoughts in my head.. But why do I have this sense of distance between us? It really feels as if I'm trying my hardest to reign in a rope that's falling away with gravity.. Bruises, these bruises I have placed upon myself. If I could love.. if I could love anyone as easy as you said it was.. And I wished I could open up to you again because you've heard words never shared with any other from me but now it's just hard?
Do distance between people not mean a thing? Or is it purely a case of self-delusion? Delusions that distance is merely of a coincidence and not a choice? That distance shouldn't make you feel any less? That distance shouldn't give you a reason to feel unloved?
Do you lose yourself to your make-beliefs or lose yourself to the belief in people?
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