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I am currently feeling very empty, no words, just a blank. I guess it's the "I shouldn't be rushing for time" feeling. You know, the feeling of wanting to rush through things just because you're so used to the momentum and when your world stops, you just lose your balance? I'm like tumbling, slipping, occasionally standing but I feel like a block of luncheon meat going through the train of wreck where they place metal over me and stamp all kinds of funny things on it and then I get sealed up nicely and just wait quietly over at the supermarket. It feels like that. Like I'm being pushed around by my own boundaries. These invisible walls cushioning every push and pull I feel.
I'm not a lost sheep, but just a little girl with plaids standing in the middle of a big meadow. Blue skies, green grass, huge breeze. Then there's this emptiness where she doesn't know to embrace or to be scared of.
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Yesterday, I travelled all the way to the other side of Singapore just to meet the OG7 girls and !!! I don't know, I was anticipating it and all, but it felt a little awkward seeing them again. There was this silence, as if it was echoing the time lapse we had in each other's lives. You know, the period of not being present or significant at a point of each other's lives, and we just move on, find new friends, have something fantastic happen to us but we can't talk about it because no one would understand it.
These bunch of people have made my life so much better and it even made me like going to school which wasn't very much so in those days, and it was just pretty amazing how much fun we had despite the different backgrounds we came from. And yeah, it's pretty sad thinking how much we have all gone our separate ways. But anyway, I'm glad we still have the "OMG LET'S MEET OKAY!! kinda spirit. hmm.
So anyway, the silence can be a killer sometimes.. which makes me wonder if I'm still stuck at where I am while everyone's off making memories and new friends and shit like that. I wouldn't say I'm stuck in the past, but rather, stuck holding onto thoughts that belonged to the past. And this is me placing all these into a box, and carrying it around with me, bringing it back to the very people who made all these memories, opening it only to see an empty box.
But anyway, it was fun hanging out again, trying to get the mojo back and all.. hopefully I'll get out of my small talk mode and you know, talk. like talk. Without feeling any of the emptiness and stuff like that.
This is just to prove that I have been trying my best to learn playing the guitar *thumbs up*
My hair is so brown!!! And the braids are so pretty, goodness, I shall master it.
Braids make me feel like such a girl seriously!
Must camwhore to see how ridiculous I look with my braids?
Do I look like a crazy woman? haha!
Nessa who deserves a huge-ass size photo for braiding our hair into pretty braids!! :3
And Jane deserves one too for being such a retard alongside me.
That's Act-cute Jane(!?!?!) and Pro-at-anything Jane.
And as you can see, I spent most of my time slumping over the guitar :|
There were lots more of self-timer shots but they were either too blurry or too offensive(imagine a boob grab LOL okay let's not get there)
Nessa left, Colleen came = MAHJONG!!!
And I am very fascinated by vaccuum packed Bakwa.
Or bagua.. WHATEVER OKAY.
:3
these girls no matter what!! Kbox soon yes yes yes yes?
The whole thing ended with them strumming the guitar
and singing along to it. How freaking awesome. Reminds
me of days where Jane and I tried so hard to harmonise
with each other on songs.. we were so obsessive haha,
let's do it again!! :)
:3
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The time calls for me to pack my room.
Annyeong.
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